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Welcome to my blogg, Make yourself at home.~

 

 

 

 

~Music part~ I will be putting all of the hits of my favorite music bands here, So that everyone can get a taste of it. Let me say "great yummy" taste of the amazing feeling of rock and different type's of music punching you right in the throat. But if you really want to listen to it, I will warn you that a lot of my music is loud and more to give your ear drum's a little piece of having a headache for a bit. So, Yeah if you want to click the button then so be it.~ I don't mind. ~Music part~ 

 

To say, I love a lot of music , i listen to different type's. I like Metal, Screamo, Rock , the oldie's, peaceful type of music, like phatom of the opea, K-pop,J-pop,J-rock. I love a lot of different type's. Even if it sound's weird to other people out there.

 

 

~More information about music.~ 

 

Anyway i will also uploud looks on how i do my makeup for some of the girl's that are out there that have been asking on how i do it. Just i will do the photos in three weeks on tops. " Yays!" for photos and seflies.~ Oh, forgot to say to turn down your "Volume" if you know on what i mean't. (( Your speaker's.)) For the people that do not listen or don't even read this. This is my blog. (( Yes, I will be posting more ideals and items.)) ~Information about makeup and some other information about ->your speaker's warning.<-~

 

 

 

 

 

I hope this helps all of the young female's that are out there, that need a little cheerful helper upper in the day. 

 

Well, A lot of people and even female's are asking me on how i do my makeup routine. And the whole information about it. So, there is a main key for that. Eye contacts meaning circle lenes. Yes, You can get eye contacts online but much sure you know where they are coming from before ordering. Some eye contacts can damage your eye a little. The little circle part is called your lens. The part to where you can see from. It helps you look and have amazing eye sight. Just make sure you can wear them, talk to your doctor before getting them. 

 

~Eye contact information/Cirlce lenes.~

In order for you to find out on how to make sure that you can wear different size's are slowly making your way up to the biggest eye contact. I will give the name soon.

The size's go up to 14.2 to up 15.0 from the last website shop i check went up to 15.0 because of how big it made your eye look. 

The water contain can make your eye's feel weird at first when you wear them at the first time. 

You need to take good care of the eye contacts , like change the liquid make sure you have eye contact tools with you. So, You can put them in. Do not use your fingers! You need to get a eye contact case with tools. The tool's will help you with the eye contacts. Because if you are not that careful...The eye contact will rip.

 

~I have more information about eye contacts, If you would like to know please message me.~

 

~^Eye contact information^~ 

 

 

The other main key is to have a lot of makeup with you, The makeup will help you have that little dolly anime reflextion towards other's once they see you. If your facial frame already look's like a dolly type of face, you can bring it out with more makeup and even more information will be here. The other main key is to make sure you are working out and eating Heathlier. A lot of the product that are out there contain a lot of sugar's and even bad ideals that are in the food product. Read the food product and the seviering size before eating. 

 

Main key's: Eye contacts, Makeup, Eating heathier, Working out. <-- All of the main key's to have a better life style and making you feel like you did something for yourself.

 

Now for the makeup tips. 

 

If you are trying out this makeup tip or even a little key try to do it for a bit so your eye's can get used to wearing amazing doll like makeup. 

Alot of K-pop and J-pop and even J-rock band groups and even some japanese to korean fashions have this look for a lot of daliy out going makeup's. If you want you will have to make sure you have a light brown to a pink type of eye shadow so, you can slowly outline the tear bag. (( Yes, the tear bag is the part of your lower bottom eye lid that you have sometime's dark circle's sometime's. )) In order to get that cute dolly like kitten look you will need a pink, white , and a little light type of brown eye shadow. But if you have the tonymoly eye bag stick please use that to make this little makeup look. 

 

If you need more help , I will post photo's here once i can. 

 

You use the white eye shadow on a eye brush to slowly outline the tear bag on your lower bottom eye lid. Then with the light type of eye shadow you make sure you don't have the much and you outline the other half of your bottom eye lid. Meaning your bottom eye lid will look cuter like if a kitten is about to cry.Then with the light pink eye shadow you use it on the inner coner of your eye. So, You will look even more kitten like. Meaning innocent. You will look very innocent. 

 

If you need anymore help with makeup tips. Please let me know. I don't mind giving out more help. 

 

~^Information on makeup.^-

 

~Information on cute and being yourself.~

 

Some people are jelous if you are cute or let me say having kawaiiness power. I was born with it and i put it up to good use's. In that you should be yourself and don't give a flying rat bottom on what they say about you. It is your life and no one else. ^^~

If you need any help with this topic, just try to message me about the problem. being yourself and showing the bullie's that are giving you problem's. Is the best way to tell them in a nice and polite way to "fuck the hell off , this is my being and my body. Not your's to push me around in." I understand that will be hard for some of you younger female's that are getting bullied or even worse. But you are not the only one! No one is perfect. We are one together girls. We will be amazing and rock on!

 

~^information on bullying and being yourself.^~

 

Information about this page below.~

 

Well this page is about on how weird i am in person to be honest and even knowing this is my blog. I love sharing my makeup ideals and even some of my anime with other's too that may not agree towards the anime. But a lot of female's have been asking about this. " How do you do your own makeup?" and " How do you seem to be so perfect?!" to be honest on that note and even truthfully. I am not that perfect at all but people may see me being perfect or as me. I am not i do things for other's but sometime's i don't get nothing in return. Like just be on your careful side on this site. I am warning anyone that is on here to be careful. Because for me, I fell down and i needed a lot of people to get me back up on my feet because of accounts getting hacked and even losing friends from rumor's that other's make about me. It is sad to hear that from someone like me? huh?It is not to be honest, Trust me , We have a lot of hatred in this world and some people don't have the balls to get up and say to it to your face. But anyway this is more information on this page below.~

 

If you want to know anymore about this please message me if you are intersted. ^^.~ 

 

I love meeting new friends~!~ < 3

 

 

 

 

 

~Gothic to pastel gothic fashion and style.~

 

This style and fashion is called pastel goth. 

 

It has a lot of pastel color's and even it has black so, you don't just have to wear black in a outfit for a daily timing. This fashion has a lot of "Creepy" outlights or even lining because of this style it somewhat new to this time and date. But if you really want to mix up this into a pastel to a anime and a creepycute outfit. Add in like a eye ball bow or even some little blood covered hands that you can make on your own. I will add in photos to show on this style. It is just i haven't had the time of day to do things like this becase of being very tried and cleaning when you are having a mother that is very ill and that can't do much around the house. But i hope all of you girl's understand on that. So, Now, back to this topic. You can add in some anime items to this outfit if you want. But sometime's some female's will have a bat heart bag of even a wig on because yeah, Dying your hair can be a "hell" of a price to do, because it will damage it but for me, I want to get my hair dyed.~ If you understand on this, I have very bad aniexty. One half of myself say's this "Oh, You are very amazing with this hair color." but the other half of myself is like this " You know, saying that type of color forever.. will get boring and stupid and even annoying!~ You need to change it!" <-- I hope all of you girl's out there understand on how that is.Sometime's for me, I try to wear wigs or some type of hair clip to just make everything look cute and creepy. But for you guys, I hope you don't end up with this problem. It is so annoying sometime's with you are battling with you own self. (( Yeah, I hope you understand on that.)) So, In that you can even mix up a huge mixute of a outfit: like this: You can have a anime necklace from a anime that you love and enjoy and then adding in some hello kitty bracelets and a huge impect of a outfit like a cute pastel top or jumper that will keep you warm in the winter. But for now, It is the summer and i only get this time to do what i want. Like: Sleeping, spending time with my family, trying to make some cosplay that will come in hande for a little out coming outfit for a contest or even on facebook :selfie's!~:I hope you girl's understand on this style because a lot of people don't now this at all. 

 

Well back to the whole difference's between pastel goth and different type's of gothic.~

 

Well, there is a different type of style like gothic, pastel goth,lolita,visual kei. <--all of thoose are different type's of fashion because they interst me into them, Just like cybergoth. That style seems more of a out going thing because of how female's dress in it. Like me: I would wear a very short skirt because of my problems and reasoning around the area i live at. <--- Trust me, It is true. A lot of people or let me say guys around here , well look at you and be like " Oh she is cute" until they end up trying to get into your little pants. <-- Being serious on this girl's and for you guys out there that love to be nosy. But yeah, there is a lot of difference's. ^^ ~ 

 

Visual kei has:

Headband on the nose around of the face.

Wild type of hair styling.

Ripup clothing to hole's in the clothing or even sometims they will have pins into the clothing.

The makeup is sometime's ot there or just simple of people that can't do it.

I have seen a lot of female's out there try to put fake crystal's by their eye area like the inner part of the lid. Or even putting the crystal as a binbi <-- A binbi is something that a lot of people use to become more closer to the earth and down with mother nature. 

I have see a lot of black into this fashion, I do love it because it is out in the open and some people will point at you because of how different you are. 

There is a another style that some U.S.A female's call scene. That started in the eariler 08's because of the trushy look to a big huge hair and colorful type's of looks. For me, I was trying to get into that fashion but to be honest.. I "faked" being one of thoose type of female's. <-- I hated myself for that. (( A note for a lot of female's or even male's that are trying to make other's happy. Don't to that, You will regret it for the rest of your days of being a teenager. Meaning still 20's until you hit 30 then that is when you are an adult.)) 

for the outskirt of this fashion it got a lot of people hooked on it because of how it looked and even the type's of shirts to pants and type clothing bands and even makeup.

 

For this fashion Is ^ there for all of the information, You may ask me anything about this type. I got into it because i wanted to be myself and I still am.~ 

 

Gothic has: 

 

A lot of gothic people that are into this type of fashion love dressing into old time clothing, Like corset to being now, i have seen a lot of change's because i did my reasearch about this fashion. I love being myself in this fashion because i love dressing in old timing clothing for like the fourteen century. That clothing is amazing. I would love to have a very old victorian clothing to like jewelry. Some of the items i have that are called "Gothic Victorian Jewelry." Some time ago when i was about fourteen years of age, i started looking around for a very old timing outfit so, i can wear it to a event that i wanted to go to, I ended up saving a lot of my money until i turned in the middle age. Meaning sixteen years of age, I couldn't go to that event because of family problems. I got so into this fashion that i love it to my heart blusted into tears crying out it.

 

Gothic has and i have seen: 

Corset .

A lot of old timing hair style's like having some of your hair curled and being half of your hair up in a little tiny bun with the rest of your hair down and curled.

Beaitful type of makeup: Up to being black and white to seeing black and purple!~ 

I have seen a lot of thing in this fashion to where a lot of people are saying some of this people are poser. Some are just trying to start out as newbie's (( Yes, Newbies in a term for starter's or beginner's.)) A lot of people have grown up in this fashion from both side's of the family or to just having one person like the mother or father into this fashion. 

A lot of people think that gothic's are depressed due to just "being" alive. No, that is not true that is just a rumor that some other's made over the year's. And It is still around to this day. 

I have seen so many pretty to like holy crap that is creepy but very amazing seeing sights in my time to say that people are getting into this fashion because it is old and it is fun to meet new friends in this type of fashion. A lot of female's that are into the fashion named: " Gothic lolita" will have tea partys or even event's because of having a new member in the group. <-- I have seen a friend of mine that is in the victorian fashion ever since i known her. She is amazing but sadly she is about in her 20's. She is about 27 and she is amazing friend of mine. But sadly she don't understand on why are people making rumor's about the old timing days to where you didn't have lights or even laptops!~ You have to have a candle and a amazing manson to yourself or a sister. To me, that would be amazing!~ This fashion got me a huge hook ever since i saw my friend do it! I thank her for what she did. ^^

 

For this fashion and more information please message me if you are intesrted!~  Now for more information please read ahead on this timing page.~

 

The fashion i have known over the year's got me hooked into a life style that i do have anime, Japanese things and even some cosplay items and even hello kitty. Yes, I am a huge hello kitty freak, Even being a victorian freak but i have some hello kitty things and even so, I am trying to get this little thing of mine to become bigger and amazing!~ 

 

I already told you guys about the two fashion. For gothic lolita to fairy kei, You can easily ask me or anyone that is into the whole korean and japanese fashioning. I got into it because i was amazed and i just couldn't stop. 

 

But anyway if you are into the whole creepy cute fashion knock yourself out! Be the person whom you want to be! and Don't ever give a flying pigg bottom on what people say towards you! If you are strong and mighty! You will beat anyone that face's you!  

 

But anyway^~ For this page and even information on this please Read Upword~ ^

 

Now for my bottom photos,~ This stuff is just randomness to like anime to movie's to like anything really.~ I hope you enjoy your stay!

 

 

 

 

 

This photo or even image calms me down because it is to a movie that i remeber watching. 

 

~^Image on top~ 

 

For the two image's here.  One with me holding a camera. That is me and the other one with me and my kitten <-- over there. ~

Look At Me, Tell Me If I Am Bleeding In The Inside, Losing It All.~

Sorry to say but this band is amazing , until i thought they were. There music now is okay. But i don't listen to them much anymore.

 

<-- Blood on the dance floor.

 

Sadly i will be redoing this whole wall . When i do everything will be different, You guys will see the things i love to randomness and to my out going editings. 

 

For more or anything else. You may contact me on here. I will be putting up the facebook app!~ Soon. ^^

My editing and avi's photos.

Well, I am here to tell you all and even more closetest friends that are here also with me. I am working hard to become the Dream.In that i am very happy that everyone was there for me. Knowing on that i am working very hard to become a Japanese Idol and with my animtion. Studying really hard so , that no one needs to worry if i do something i don't like. In that my time here will be short for a while, I will be on and offline as you can see. And For the Good nows, I am working on my New Character it is coming very good to be honest with how much i put into making character's and My time with other's on here. And I know a lot of you out there think i am insane for saying this. Some of the hater's that hate me because of ONE DAMN PERSON that is RUNNING and Trying to make people get all pissy.  In that I am still here not wanting to give up at all. NOW OR NEVER.~ If you want to give up that is your decission and On you. But NEVER give up because of One person. For the Bad News, That is am slowly getting the stuff i need so i can make the character and with everything i am doing. I am getting a little bit of money from the job i have. In that i am thinking on going back to modeling for my friend's website. ~ ^^ In that i am Very Happy that some of you stayed with me with i was going through a lot and moving to a new account. 

 

P.S. I am VERY THANKFUL TO HAVE YOU GUYS! <3 ^^

 

Love, Katie aka Amaya.~

 

The New character will not be up in like a while but slowly it will come together like it did with Megumi.~ 

 

Baii baii~ Nyaaa chi chi LOVE <3 <3 <3 ~~^^

 

 

 

 

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I entered for this giveaway and I am so happy because i am just really happy that Sweet Spirts and  LOVE SHOPPINGHOLICS is doing this huge giveaway. I am just hoping i can win so i can get the eye contacts for my sister. ^^ yays!!

It is that time of the year. 

 

It is time to make a NEW YEAR Resolution! ^^ 

 

^^ Happy New Year Everyone and I am very greatful for having you guys in my life. ^^!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3!

^^ Thank You Everyone! 

This area here. Is for anime to manga. ~

For this manga, I am reading it is called. " I am a hero." I am thinking on a lot of people that are into the horoor scene and even the zombie scene will love this manga. Well, All love manga people will love this. It is a very amazing book because it tell you about the main character and what is going on in his life. Knowing for a Mangaka. (( Meaning a person that is working for the main person that designed the manga helps me out, With drawing and writing.)) Mangaka Assistant <--. (( For more information on this, Just message me and i will explain.)) I didn't know that a male will be struggling with his own relationship to keep it alive and out going. Until one day. ~Something happens to everyone. and Even his lover.~ Sadly I do not want to give out any information about this manga because trust me. I cried while reading this.~

 

For the information about this manga.

 

The manga was release: In 2009.

 

The author that did this manga: Hanazawa Kengo. (( I have seen this author's other work but this is the best one i have seen.))

 

The artist: Hanazawa Kengo. (( He is the person that did the work of the manga meaning this person is a mangaka. But there is a thing , for someone being a mangka that take's a lot of balls.))

 

The Genres in this manga: Drama, Horror,Mature,Psychological,Seinen,Slice Of Life,Tragedy. (( For this manga everything in the genres will happen in the place. Just read it and you will find out.~))

 

The plot Summary: Hido Suzuki is a thirty-five year old mangka Assistant struggling to be a hero in his own life by breaking back into the lime light with a new serial all the while juggling his relationship with his delustions. Until one day something troubling happens to everyone in his own town and towards his lover. However, As hard as Hideo may tey, the world seems to have a different setting of plans for him; Sinster and dark Machinations that completely overturn his reality as he knows it. :plot summary ends: 

 

Nominated for the 3rd and fourth manga Taisho Award in 2010 and 2011. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The other manga that i am reading is more of a adult type of manga. I am thinking on the detailing is more for an adult eye's to see in my point of reading this manga. I do really love the cover of this manga being because of it looks like a human body that is looking at you half way. But having a fishy from the sea all over the facial frame of this person's face. In that i think it should be more of a eighteen and up type of manga instead of having it open for little children's eye's to see. But you have to find out on our why this curse is causing so much trouble's for only one person. I am not going to ruin this manga for anyone that wants to read it.But the name in Japanese on the manga say " Anamorphosis no meijuu." I don't now the english meaning but i am thinking on the meaning of it. 

 

But be warned when i say it is only for adults only!~ 

 

The manga was released in 2010 and the name of the manga is called Anamorphosis no meijuu.

 

The Author of this manga is: Kago Shintaro.

 

The Artist of this manga is: Kago Shintaro.

 

The Genres of this manga: Adult , Horror.

 

The plot Summary of this manga: A sort of a horror-mystey, Anamorposis revolves around a ground of people invited to a contest where in they have to stay in a supposedly haunted set for 48 hours after an evil murderous spirit is summoned to produce a recreation of the murder scene.: End of plot summary.: 

 

Over half of the book features in the story and the rest is collection of bizarre shorts to make you go!~ ( ﾟдﾟ)！？In a reaction of this manga. ^^ 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

If you love reading manga or if you never have ever got thinking on reading a manga please try one out, I have more informations on manga's that are opening online to read. I will be putting up more monthly favorite's of manga or even books. This manga is only for adult's so make sure no little one's are around while reading this. The book is very graphic and detailed with scene's and part that will probably make you want to go somewhere else so, that no one will see on what you are reading about. I am just warning you about this one because you should understand that horror and adult graphic's mean something far more worse than the first manga i typed here about for you guys to read. 

 

But anyway i will be putting up the facebook app here soon on my website so, anyone that wants to ask question about a anime or even a manga or even wondering on how to start off. I don't mind helping out or even giving tips on how too. Just be aware that some anime's and manga's that i will be putting up might be too creep or too graphic for anyone to read or might be too scary to read on your own. If you have anything else about anything you may message me. I don't mind helping or chatting. 

 

~^ more information about the manga, Please read upward^~

 

~vInformation about anime , Please read down bottom.v~

 

I am still looking for more manga to read from, In my veiw there is so much manga and anime and more thing's i am looking into. Like makeup and More reading and studying also. I am updating you with the manga. But now. I will move into Anime. 

 

I have been watching Chaos head, The anime is very intense , other's say it is weird and insane, but in my book it is kinda like another and shiki and a little bit of hellsing mixed in a very weird anime that can leave your brain numing for a little bit until you realized on what you are watching a very confusing anime. But still it make's sense in my book. Because it started out with a male going to school but i am not going to tell anymore. I wll say about the author and the artist and the genre's for the anime. 

 

Here is the information, Btw i really can't find the Author for the anime. But when i can , I will look into it for you guys. 

 

 

Episodes: 12 

 

Status: Finshed airing

 

Aired Oct 9, 2008 to Dec 25, 2008

 

Producers: MadHouse, Funimation, Entertainment.

 

Genres: Mystery, Sci-Fi, Harem , Supernatural , Psychological. 

 

Duration: 27 min, per episode. 

 

Rating : R - 17+ ( Violence and Profanity) 

 

Synopisis 

 

Shibuya,Japan, 2008. Takumi Nishijou , a high school student at the Private Suimei Academy , One day hears about the 'News Gen; Murders that have been occurring around the city. Although dismissing the subject because it doesn't involve him, Takumi begins to experience strange mishaps around him, from a horrific picture he received while on his Pc, to a mysterious Pink-Haired girl standing at a murder scene. 

 

From there on Takumi struggles to cope with the events unfolding around him, and is soon unaware of what is real or not or a delusion. As his fate opens up before him, the perpetrator behind the 'New Gen' events attempts to find him, leading him into a world where nothing is as it seems. 

 

Related Anime 

 

Adaptation: ChaoS;Head 

Alternative setting: Steins;Gate, Robotics;Notes

 

~Done.~

 

I am Still watching it because i am in a Anime Group Watching more anime, It is more of the anime i have been looking for. I got a list of trying to watch them.

 

The anime i am going to watch~

 

http://myanimelist.net/anime/13125/Shinsekai_yori 

http://myanimelist.net/anime/10568/Kamisama_no_Memochou

 

 

I have other anime to watch. I am being very serious my list is damn bloody long. But Anyways, If you have any question reguarding this anime or even the other anime's i have typed here please message me. I don't mind giving out more handy type's of anime up to manga to anyone this is intesrted in this topic. I don't really mind helping out anyone with a adult graphic manga at all. Also i will be making meetup with anyone on my friend's list that want to watch or even read a manga together. Just make sure you tell me the manga or anime first before i say something back. I don't mind doing this but if i say i will see on what i can do. That mean's i am very busy with cleaning and doing house work for my mom. So please go ahead and ask. I do not mind. But be aware if you are some dude that is trying to talk to me, I will ask on what do you wish to be on that behalf. So, Please make that fast, if you don't end up being honest. I am sorry to say and be on that little block button bottom click! But yeah! I will block you!~

 

Warning: If you want to have some one on one time about a anime or even a manga please read on the rule's. 

 

One: Message me about the anime or manga that you wish to read or watch with me i do not mind doing my reasearch before hand.

 

Step Two: Please be honest and truthful on why you want to speak with me. I do not mind meeting new friends. 

 

Step Three: If you are not that honest and only looking for some cute female to like Give you "Pleasure" or even "try" get into my pants. I will block you on spot. 

 

Step Four: Make a date and time and i will see on what i can do! 

 

Thank you for reading about this information about reading and watching anime together. Go anime freak zone.~ 

 

~~~~~To read this information please read up ahead. Thank you for reading and have a amazing kawaii day!~~~~

 

 

 

 

 

~Information about ~Makeup~ and even daily life outlines Please read here!!~

 

I have been doing a lot of eye contacts and eye lashes. also trying to do reviews for other eye contacts shops but really i don't have a lot of money do to it yet. I have two store's i want to review from online. Lensvillage and PinkyParaside. 

 

I wanted to review them so badly. But i have to wait for month to ask my mom if she will be welling to help. But i don't now. 

 

But anyway's for the makeup i have been doing. I can show you. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

For the eye makeup , it is just some eye shadow's , and eye lashes. and my eye contacts that i wear everyday . But yeah. My new hoodie, I got at the Thrift Shop for 2.99.

 

It was a steal. Anway's for my hair i curled it but when i went outside, My hair just want blahhhhhh flat. I sometime's get annoyed by it. But anyway's that is life. 

 

I will have more up soon. even working on my new character. But It is going to take time due to that i am studying more and harder. ^o^!!! Woot! It is almost spring. 

 

See you guy's when i can update again.~ 

 

 

Love you guys.!!! 

 

 

Wanna be my Pet? ~.~

Well, this is going to be a RANT, Because I really can't take the "Problems" of being a pet but wanting to have fun with the person. Like really, You have to go do this and that. But really... I am saying i guess , i don't understand about it. I really do have problems and i even keep telling that person i do. Even if so, I don't listen. I got upset about it to where i felt like a idiot on being nice and kind to the person. Maybe it is just me or my brain or just i am a emotional fucking mess. Well, I am one because of the bullshit i got through every day. Even so, I try to be sweet and kind. It is like. " NOPE, You don't listen." and yeah , putting that in your face and reading it to where you feel like you are going to just sit there and stare until you have the feeling that you don't matter at all. It is just " Oh, Hey.. How are you and blah blah blah." I don't get it anymore. Wanting to have fun with the person and Having to go on webcamera and do stuff. .. I just think my time is not worth it. I do care about that person as a close friend. But I get this feeling he don't even care about half of the female's that he is inviting to his "Place" Just ... yeah. Putting it in a way to where i feel like a idiot. Only having on thing on my mind and that is a lot of things. I thought it would be fun on giving it a try but I was WRONG, It is not what you think. For me, I have problems and Yeah for you god damn informaton i was almost mostled and raped at the age of sixteen years of age. So, yeah. That is my problem that is why i can't do shit what other girl's are welling to do. Oh it is for the whole " Master" and "Pet" and no, I just say. I give up and I don't even want to think about it anymore. It is like " Oh.. ahahah " In your face. Even in a chatroom when that person is saying that you are doing things wrong and being too weird. It is like hallo I'm a weirdo. If you don't like it, FUCK OFF! Just simple. and I am getting sick of some of the guys that are only looking for a piece of ass.. I just feel so .. blah about it. Role-playing is fun but when you have to have sex in it. It is like... Okay that is fine but when you see so many people doing it. It ends up going into your bloody mind, casuing a amass of problems to where you are thinking. " Oh, this people are cool" But wrong again.. That person i talk too because i needed to get something off of my chest. He was a very good listener to where we changed the topic. and again... I felt like a freaking idiot on speaking to him. Knowing he was probably busy. Yeah yeah, You are probably thinking that i have a problem and i need help. and I don't. I just feel like i don't matter to anyone, Like i am being serious. ... ~*Part two of the rant*~ In this part two of a rant. I am going to talk about Depression and feeling alone.  That is what i get from most of the test messages. Like Oh hey, Wanna be friends and secondly you end up getting a feeling that they are just one of thoose douchbags only wanted to talk to you for a little bit until they are like. " You are annoying, Stop talking to me.~" and Yeah. Getting emotions from message's from that person you are talking too. NOT COOL DUDE OR EVEN A FEMALE, NOT DAMNED FASHIONABLE GIRL! For me, I try to be nice and friendly and like a hour later that person messages you saying. " Yeah, You are bothering me, and It gets annoying when i am trying to role-play." it is like what the fuck is your problem, people? Like serious this is not highschool or fucking middleschool. This is the net  and trying to meet friends and being nice and polite. BUT NO! No one is god damn polite anymore. It is getting me so pissed off and upset at times to where i want to make a freaking piece of paper airplane and throw it in the person's eye ball and Ripping it out. Yeah, I even warned people that i am a freaking emotional person. ._. but nope, They don't read the god damn message. It is seriously wanting to take a piece of glasses and giving it to them and being like " Here, You read it or I will tell you it in person that i am a freaking emotional person." My point it proven here btw.  So yeah, With that side. A another part of this rant is .... FUCKING PEOPLE >.< that don't now on how to say sorry. ~* Rant three.**~ Taking about people saying sorry or just being a douchbag to you in a chat or even ignoring you.  So, Yeah. Here if a topic for a lot of people. One is drive's me nuts and plus. I am a freaking clingy person. yeah, You heard me. I am clingy. Is there a problem? I hope not. Because i warned people about that. I am clingy, Nice , Sweet, Friendly. But in the inside i am alone and depressed and yeah.. My emotions go out of the bottle because of how much crap i hide away. Like one. I am trying to get out of pm's and talking to more people that will understand the meaning of " FRIENDS" and not having to do shit on "WEBCAMERA" ... It is like hello people , i don't want you to like show me your god damn **** in my face. Like yeah. I said it. It is so fucking bloody god damn asshat annoying that i would rip off your laptop screen and hit you in the face with it. <--- being serious. o-o ... I would just be like. Yeah.. showing me that yeah. Not getting away with it.  Ahahah!!! More ranting. ~* Random ass rant about everything you will hear here.*~ If you wish to read be careful of reading because of swearing. *~ Okay, here you go people's. Well, here is the start of a random rant about everything you will hear because of a fucking person that love's to show everyone is ****, is more likely in my book to get his little weenie in something. o-o ... Yeah i said it.  Plus i get so freaking annoyed when people are trying to speak to me and then a another person try to be like " Ohh, are you talking about me?" and No, I am not. I am having a conversation with a another person about some depression problems while you run your mouth towards me. Oh hell no. Okay? Oh, yeah being clingy does not have to deal with you being a not so clingy person. ._. One i am fucking clingy and I even warned a lot of damn bloody people about it. But soon one person talked to me and yeah.. his message's were not damn bloody pretty to read. In my veiw. because saying you are annoying and being a dick to you. Like the fuck?! You were nice and sweet to me before and we role-played for a bit and now, You are acting like a total dick towards me. It is like.. Why have friends.. when they are just going to step all over you and make you feel like a idiot or even a dumbass for bothering them. It is like WHY?!  It is like really why... But anyways. If someone asked me that, I would be blunt and straight up. " Friends that do that only want you to use you or even just treat you like a pile of shit on the shreets. Yeah.. this is reality and people need to grow some balls!  ~End of the RANT*~ Fucking bullshit.! ~  Plus you can hate me all you want, I don't really care and YOU know ON WHO YOU ARE. Knowing you treated me like shit. So, There for. I am done.  ~ 

Long Distance Relationships/Loving. 

I believe everyone has been in this little path of life that you really can't believe the up's and down's with "LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS." Everyone has been there, even for me. and I am in a relationship with the most amazing man or let me say weirdo that you will ever meet. I can say that it has been easy for us now, but when we opened up to each other. It made a little form of trusting and a little scyle of problems and speaking to eachother. We have contacts with each other, Skype, Facebook, The works. We care for eachother but the problem is. That we have been in relationships that they were all nice and amazing until the bomb exploded in your face. Yes , I said the bomb because it is not like you were seeing it coming to you at all. The longest relationship i have been in was a "LONG TWO YEAR" relationship. Yes me and him loved eachother but... sadly... it didn't work. It caused a lot of drama and problems between us. and Knowing with the problems i had then. I still have know due to past reasons and other things that i wish not to speak about. Clearly , The relationship i am in now, is amazing and peaceful. I realized everything is fine. Until i clicked this little video because i was thinking and this chick spoken out , and I mean i thought i was okay, lets make this relationship. But having trust in your love partner as well with not having a "Controling and mean and being so violent" lover to where it causes you to just cut off all contact with that person. I did that to two people that i have been in relationships with. Turst me, thoose relationship's were not that pretty to be in. In my shoes you would probably be like. " You know what, with your behavoir and actions need to change." Clearly i did everything in the book on my end. Cleaning my actions being more polite and nice towards the male i was "with" But hey... it is life what you got to say? Aren't we humans or we are just robots controled by the grovement to just go along with their little game's of life. So, there for, i am not one of the robots. I do have emotions and yes, for the other human's that don't have emotions in there penis headed minds. Yes yes, that means you guys that only want to just stalk or be a creep to a "sexy" or "cute" female that you want to have all to yourself. Clearly not happening. A lot of this is for relationship's and speaking out towards other's that have been in worse relationships. Being forced or threated or even black mailed is one of the reason, i sometime's hate about some of the guy's here on the net ((Inernet.)) that only think they are high and mighty. So, No, just being a perverted annoying twat is what they are just being in my mind. As well with having contact with your love on this , is to be trust , opening up towards that person, and making it work. Or... once you two get closer the heart break is going to be more painful than ever before because your heart will just break in little tiny small pieces. (( Yes.. that happened to be a lot of times until i realized that all of the male's on here are just clearly looking for a piece of ass and not caring about your trust/emotions/reasons of not having SEX in real life. YES I SAID IT PEOPLE, you MAYBE the judge of WHAT i am saying. But in this matter all male's on the net well, only want a piece of your ass or pussy to go around and show it to other's. Moformingly they are just being straight up penis dick heads to you or your friend or even your mom. It really depends on the guy that your mom or friend or even yourself is with. Because of being a little trusting freak here. Yes, I do have trusting problems with other's. But i clearly can trust you with my little share of problems and reasonable isssues with the world and male's that only think with there " Penis" <-- clean and clear on that point that they do. Hunny they do. Anyways , as i was saying, if you and your love partner have contact with each other. KEEP IN CONTACT, Have a texting round or even skype if things get "Kinky" or on " Fire" oh yes, I said kinky and on fire. In meaning sexual contact is on the raid. Like teasing and speaking about the problems with you two have with masterusbating. Well, Yes if you are reading this people. Don't judge the speach of masterusbating because it is all nomarl and part of our nature to do it. Like if you two are planing on going to have sex. Just make sure you two have a couple of minutes of foreplay. ~ But for long distance that is hard because you two can go on webcamera and tease a little. Like boobs <-- I did a couple of times with the man i am with. Yes i did. He enjoyed it but flipped the fuck out. When i did. Because he was talking about of being turned on and so there for, the mighty brain power of woman. THE BREASTS~ woot, anyways if you two are going to just going to tease keep it at like covering the boobs like half of the boobs. Just don't go all nuded and run around. Because one little tip: Skype records all of there calls into the system. Just making sure people know about this because if you don't.. Well... Heads up. Don't go all nude. <-- Information tip!!!  But for tinychat, make sure you have a room that is password locked for only you two to get in and get out. Not having other people poping in going. " Ohhhh HAIII" yea kinda creepy on that end. But for meeting in person be aware if you seen them on webcamera just be safe to carry around a handbag with a pocket knife or even pepper spray. <-- good tip and key of being protective.  For the most part of long distance relationship. If you try to keep it going with you two going on skype and webcamera. I am saying is just make it work. Knowing that you two are very long around the world and can't see eachother yet because of "MONEY" or having a problem with your "MOTHER" or just plan out family problem. 

 

 

It is a matter of time to where the relationship will have a stopping point in life that it can't work out of mean't to be .... Sorry to say people that is part of life, i know it is sad and depressing but it is part of the crul world saying, This is not mean't to be. and slowly try to move on. Not be stuck in the past. Hope that a lot of you try to do what you can. Never be stuck in the past. It will cause so much more problems. Like depression, not caring about other's. <-- True it is going to happen. But slowly make your way out of that dark place and get some ice cream and probably cry your eye's out for four hours or five hours. I am very glad to open up here for anyone that reads this. It is a Big help for anyone out there. Serious if you need help. I am here to help. 

 

 

Thank you for anyone that is reading my blog. I love everyone here and i mean it. Without you guys i wouldn't be here at all. Sharing and caring for everyone and even my closest friends <3 I love you all. Akemi, Jon, Whinry, Molly, Alyssa, Devin, Cody, Sam, Eyir-chan, Grimmy, Tainted, Lace , Rikki, Joelle, Sanae-chan, Emily ( my sister.) Alucard ( Jon) , Roxy, Lottie, Everyone that has been here from the ever start.~ <3 I love you all.~ 

 

Take care! Promise to make more later on in life. 

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End of 2014 and the start of 2013 Fed 2. 

To my 2014 to 2015 new year's wishes and resolutions

Well, To start things off of the huge bang, I wanted to make myself clear with somethings of my own wishes  that did and didn't come true last year due to being a little slow with things. But yeah, for all of my wishes, I wish i would get back into more Pc game's because of my gaming laptop needs to be fixed too.  But yes, I will say that 2014 was an amazing year with my nineteenth birthday being a huge hit and even slowly getting myself out there on the internet . But yeah, I have a facebook that has somewhat of a good amount of people but i want to break my fear bubbles and other things. So, Let me get the list started. 

 

1: Get more sleep so, I can fully forcus on studying and even working on wigs of mine. 

2: Become more flexable with my body so, I will be able to do the splits and moving my legs up while doing it. But i know that would be a creepy or weird thing to do.

3. Working out more and even trying to get my stomach flatter because i want to look more healthier and more active.

4: I want to get over my fear bubble so, I can start a youtube channel of my own. I also want to do  with my youtube channel become more open about things if i have too. 

5: I also want to forcus on cos-playing and making more of jewelry and other iterms to cos-play in. 

6: I want to become more heathly so i can be a good exsample to my brothers. 

7: A another one of of my wishes is to become more and more open to things that people ask me about. Like I am mature but there are some things that i can't really talk about without crying or feeling like it's my fault. 

8: I also want to put here that i wished to go to an anime conversation , i haven't been to one this year at all yet. 

9: I also want to kept making the jewerly and stuff i do but i want to try to make cute little hair bows and headbands. 

10: Get more into modeling and forcus on working on katja and franziska's story and character. 

11: Do more anime and manga reviews for my blog here, I know it's hard but it's completely right to do this so, People can see that i am working really hard on become the person i want to become.

12: Being more of a person that is more fun to be around and even in so, A lot of people feel very comfortable as it is with me but i want them to feel like they knew me in like a past life or even a long time ago. 

13: Yes, For the Animation to Manga review's i will be doing a lot more than what i am doing now, I will be having some of the stuff here on my blog and facebook.

14: Get more stuff on my blog so that people can see that i am working really really hard on making myself known out there for all anime to manga lover's. 

15: Understand people more that have been in worset problems than i am or have been in. 

16: Caring is giving and i will be giving half of my clothing that i don't even wear that much to a goodwell every three to four months when it's time to clean the closet. 

 

For all of the people that are reading this all of that i have to do in so, I do have more wishes and other thing's that i want to put. It's hard to explain to people when i am just typing this out. But if you heard me in voice you would understand on the pain that a lot of people give you because you are different and they don't understand nothing about you. My resoluions are the list up there but i have more that i am doing to make sure that all of my goals come true!~ 

 

But i will be doing more animation reviews and manga reviews like i said, It's just going to take me a bit to think on what i'm going to say about the animation to manga.~ 

 

 

Anime review/ speaking about the problems of people. Fed, 2st, 2015.  (( Anime reviews and manga reviews for 2015 are here.)) 

English name of animation: Tokyo Ghoul.  

 

Japanese name of the animation: 東京喰種-トーキョーグール- 

 

Synonyms: Tokyo Kushu, Toukyou Kushu.

 

Type: Tv

 

Episode: 12 episode's in this animation. (( first season.))

 

Status: Finished airing.  Aired: Jul, 4th, 2014, Sep, 19, 2014. 

 

Producer's: Studio Pierrot, Funimation Entertainment.

 

Genres: Action, Mystery, Drama, Horror, Supernatural, Psychological, Seinen.

 

Durration: 24 minute's per episode.  

 

Rating: R- seventeen and up. (( Violence and Profanity.)) 

 

Plot Summory: The Susupense horror/dark fantasy story is set in Tokyo, which is Haunted by Mysterious " Ghouls" who are devouring Humans. People are gripped by the fear of thses ghouls whose identites ae masked in mystery. An ordinary college student (( Main character.)) Kaneki encounters Rize, A girl who is an avid reader like him, at the cafe he frequents. Little does he realize that his fate will change overnight. 

 

~Characters.~

 

Kaneki Ken. :Main charaacter:

 

Touka, Kirishaima 

 

Uta 

 

Taro

 

and other character's. (( Well, type out the character name's later on.))  

 

Time for the review of this animation. 

 

I know that a lot of people are going to hate me for this because i have watched this anime like three time's. Which is because of some other people are saying that this animation is trush and it's garbage. But for crying out loud this is just the first season of the animation. Nothing is prefect in you're eye's unless you are a " Manga" reader. Which would cause a lot of the disagreeing and unliking for the matter. Yes, I said it and it's the truth that people couldn't really take due to watching the animation like three time's to just understand everything and yes, there are some time line skips to not getting out on why there are human's that are "ghoul's" eating their own kind. It's something that you can't really understand unless you have rewatched the anime to understand it fully. When i watched it the first time i somewhat got an ideal on what's going on because of the other people that are "ghoul's" that are hidden behind a mask of someone else's face. Yes, There is a thing in the plot sommury saying that their own identities are hidden by a mask of mystery. and I do agree to that type of summory plot. It's just an amazing piece of work that would have you watch it more than three time's. I do somewhat agree that it's not like the manga but come on! Half of you guys are taking the fun out of the animation because it's not going arecording to your own liking. Which is stupid like very stupid and childish. But I love on how the ending of the last episode turned out. It really did show on how he lost his mind towards going into tourment and being totoured to the ends of his own mind. Until he finally lost his mind and went into full power up mode. Yes, I said it. It's an amazing piece of art that would probably get you to fucking hate it but for your own little asses that are hating this anime. IT'S A ANIME NOT YOUR OWN HATING LITTLE LINE OF HATING EVERYTHING THAT IS IN THIS ANIMEATION. so yes, you should get off of your little high horse and tink about the anime and the manga it's just very stupid if you are going to call something trush or not a worth of time to even check out. But yesh. For all of you that have been waiting for this type of thing. Here it goes. From the animation to the soundtrack to the character designing and process of it. I say it just amazed me in the way that i couldn't stay away. I really can't. I felt the feelings from Riza and the other female character named Touka. She is one powerful little female that goes towards her words and never gives up. That's why i have to give out from the time line skiping and even leaving some of the people half way dumb ass -clueless on not trying to put it together. I give this animation an 10 out of nine because of from the action to the scene where the fucking ass french dude got his body cut in half. Which made me laugh my ass off until i peed myself. 

 

In so, If you come on here and message me all of the hatred you have for me because of liking this animation. WELL, fuck you. I will also be reading the manga.~  I hope you like reading this and YES, I will be doing a review on the manga. ~ 

 

 

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