Welcome to my hell.~

My own self is just being cute and aborable to people and the naked eye as well. I can also be your living night mare. Because i do not take shit or crap from people anymore. I do have problems but i will tell you that later in the start of this. For the japanese and german style. I got into it because it is something i love doing. Infect it is something i am hooked on and into. A lot of people do have problems judging you. If you look different from people they will just judge you because you do not care. For one sometimes i do care about it. But half i don't. Because it is me and not them in a way i love myself.  Like let me say if you love being emo and cyber gothic. Go for it and try out the new looks and style that you will get hooked on in a heart beat. The increasing heart beat will tell your gut to do it. Do not care what people think go for it.
For the different between cyber gothic and Visual kei:
The Differences between them they are from different parts of the world. For cyber gothic the style is Epic. I mean to where having colorful outfits and The cyberlocks looks so amazing to where i would wear them as well. But to where you do not need to dry your hair. That is why i mix Viual kei and Cyber Gothic together. I love them both to where i will just mix them together. For Visual kei it is not like scene at all. It is more different . You have some of the riped shits and pants. It is just so epic.
Problems about angry and drepression and ODD and ADHD
For the angry problems i get really pissed off easily but sometimes i do because it dements if i am in a good mood or bad mood. Well, I do sometimes have mood swrings in the day if i am not feeling well. So, In that part The ADHD comes in when i can't do work or pay attention in class or even on work sometimes that is the most sad thing about me. But i can work up to three to four things without getting in a bad mood or upset.  For the ODD oppositional Defiant Disorder. I do not like being dossed around or being told to do this. In a way my angry comes in and i do sometimes tell people to fuck off. But if your forcing me to do something then this is a warning if you end up seeing the bad side of me that some people are scared shitless of. Then this is your choice Do not piss me off. If you do then you will end up with a black eye or worse.
^ hate talking about it because i use it for self protection against people or guys
A lot of people do ask on why i got into the stuff that are "Weird" or that are "Define weird".
Well, One i am weird and not nomarl that some people are. I love dressing weird with colors or sometimes going all dark. So, the problem people have are. That they should do some research or trying to find out why people want to be weird. It is part of nature and mostly life.
Cosplay:
I do cosplay when i get the money too or the chance too. I love anime it is the most epic and amazing drawing and shows to watch. Meaning in japanese or sometimes i do have it english subbed or both english and japanese subbed. ^^ I love dressing up in cute costumes. Acting out the part of the "character" i am playing as. Mostly sometimes for the frist day i do my character " Amaya " a lot of people i ran into just be like "she looks familer" then all of a sudden they call my name and i end up saying hallo.
Friends that i am very close too: On my profile  ( I will be writing about it xD hehehehe)
Weird things to know about me before talking to be warning: I can be mostly sweet but then once you say something about a game or anything tomboyish. That is when my tomboy side comes out.
Love skateboarding, cars. ( Want a damn hot rod T ^ T) shooting games. I suck at pc games for shooting. but i love cooking, drawing and the same stuff on my profile.
I also have other problems as well.
Trusting problems.
Drepression problems.
oppositional Defiant Disorder
OCD.
I am an cleaning freak. Sometimes i will clean when no one is like bugging the hell out of me. I have been having though kinds of problems ever since i was a kid. And now i still have them knowing i am an teenager. I still have them to this day.
Anything i did in middle school and half of my nineth grade year / Now in homeschool.
I used to play the flute. I used to be in chour. I love singing after my eight grade year i drop out because i was being bullied. Ever since then i have been training my voice to sing and ever thing esle.  I love singing. Becaus I can sing in different tone.  Plus, I do play the drums. When i can get the music store and help out one of my friends with bussiness. ^^
The photo me and some of the anime. I am into. ^


​In other words I am just being myself , being a cosplayer and doing some of the make up loos from anime. Ohh and Yes I will put the looks here. As well.

​real life info about me and amaya ~
http://kawaiiikat.weebly.com/index.htm
Amaya's little sister i am designing.
http://mybasiccosplayamayahotaru.weebly.com/
http://www.vampirerave.com/profiles/profiles2.php?profile=Gohicamayaaa
My vampire rave's account



I also have a youtube o^^o ~

 

 

 

 

What can you see in front of you? A world overflowering with multicolored charms? The most important things lie behind your eyelids. Just close your eyes, and you will see. You, in the flashing lights, were the only one who didn't disappear.The most important things lie behind your eyelids. Just close your eyes. remember that. i'm here, i'm here. The warm clouds are coming closer. Don't sleep, don't sleep. Your vacant eyes begin to twinkle. I'm here , i'm here. A bird arcs across the sky. Don't die, don't die! Paradise disappears when you close your eyes for the last time...Forgive me....and be happy.

 

Japanese ver.

 

Anata no mae ni nani ga mieru? Irotoridori miryoku afureru sekai? Daji na mono wa mabuta no ura. Koushite tojireba mietekuru. Tenmetsu shiteru hikari no naka demo,anata dake wa kienakatta. Daiji na mono wa mabuta no ura kara, soushite deiji ni oboeteru. Watashi wa koko yo koko ni iru no. Atsui kumo ga sugu soko made kiteru wa. Nemutte wa dame nemutte wa dame yo. Utsuro no me ga mabataki wo hajimeru.Watashi wa koko yo koko ni iru no. Ichiwa no tori go ko wo egaite yuku wa. Itte wa dame yo itte wa dame yo. Rakuen nante doko ni mo nai wa. Saigo wa mabuta wo tojiru toki...Gomen nante ayamaru watashi wo yurushite...Shiawase ni ochiteyuku.